Duality in the Sun

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I am layered and beautiful

I am layered

and wrapped

in colors

and feelings,

like an orange

with multiple

skins.

And I long to

be peeled,

dig your nails

in to me,

remove chunks.

And each layer

I want you

to be in

awe, I want

to be in awe,

and surprised

by my own depth?

And I when

I start to

feel naked,

I don’t want

to be in fear

or embarrassment,

because I

know when

you reach my

center, when

I reach my center,

I will be

sweet,

juicy

and just

as beautiful.

I think maybe

I’m gonna

start listenin

to MYSELF

give it

a chance

because

my jaws

continuos

pop

pop

pop

SWELL

only reminds

me how i dont

want to live

in pain,

I cant just keep

waiting for

the next

pop,

because you,

you are a

pop,

that Im just

waiting

to swell.

I need a change.

And I think maybe

im ready

I still think of you

A day,

another day

my head hits

the pillow

like a rhythm.

A day

another one

and still

I think of you.

Like a hidden

bag of chocolate,

I know its bad

but its there

and I know it

and I want it.

Really though

I know that

you don’t

think of me,

but here I am

trying to

avoid sweets.

Thoughts

so sweet

but oh so

bad.

A day

and another

one, and I

still think of you.